Sunday, January 30, 2005
current mood: (0.0) [dazed]
dazed too much today. kept on thinking things that will never happen. NEVER!
was being roused by my sis this morning. no i should say afternoon. remember i mentioned in my last few post that i went for a check up for hep B ? yup. results came out yesterady. my sis went to collect it. and i got it only today. i...i...am...cer..ti..fied...SAFE! I'M FREE OF HEP b YAY! thank god i'm fine man.
going for 2 jabs on tues i think. not very sure. with my sis. actually was going to have my 1st jab today. but was down with running & stuffed nose. and the docter advice us not to take our jabs today. talking about my nose. that damn medicine i take everyday doesn't seem to take effect on me. shit man. i go to bed everynight with my nose stuffed.!!! can't breath. and that feeling sucks.
and was casually shopping around with my sis. then suddenly i realised most of the shops are playing CNY songs. those songs are real lame. REALLY LAME!. don't feel like going into those shops with CNY music being played.(cz i think the music are annoying) ; p
O ya. when i reached home, i actually tidied up my room. not so entirely tho. but it is much more neater now. : ) as i was clearing my drawers when i have memories came flooding back to me. particular one of the drawer i have. it's so small. yet contains all my teenager years' happiness in there. the silly fights i had with CY.the letters she wrote me whenever we had a fight.(i write letters to her also duh!) wonder how are my letters with her. did she treasure it? or did she simply... throw it away?! THEN U ARE GONA GET IT FROM ME!! : (
suddenly feeling that i am growing old. really growing old. my parents aging. soon they'll be grey and old. i always kinda brood over this kinda thing. parents getting old, losing them etc etc. suddenly i don't feel like getting on with my life anymore. i wished i could stop here. HERE ON THE SPOT. WHERE THE WORLD DOESNT EVOLVE AROUND THE SUN ANYMORE. and people still get on with their lives. no aging. everybody stays put. then i think i'll be the happiest person on earth. ya though i know that would never happen. : ( but how i wished it would.
sometimes seeing my mother getting so busy over house work even after work makes my heart aches. i really do. sigh. despite the things that i've been worrying, the earth still evolves around the sun isn't it? and we still get on with our lives isnt that so too? : (
i may seem happy, optimistic, bubbly, bla bla bla to all of my friends out there. i am. i agree i am. i'm happy MOST OF THE TIME. but i am normal person. i have worries also. i have morbid thoughts also! okay this post made me sad. : (
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