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Friday, September 02, 2005
let me quickly sum up what happened these three few days in the ward. just 3 days, and 2 people died under my care. cool aint it?
the routine goes for me,
- rush to hospital
- work
- go back home flat on bed.
the pain on my leg's killing me right now. i'm afraid there'll be those ugly vessels that will float on my pretty legs(like shiat)
actually there are too much things for me to say that i dont know where to start. it's true that we have to clear bowels and urine for patients. sometimes we even do things that are much more disgusting than just clearing stools and urine. not as in seeing blood or what. that isnt a big deal for me.
not to hide this, but i almost vomitted today. yes. in front of the patient that i was nursing. when i was changing changing pamper for an old helpless lady. anyway she has a very good husband la..really devoted husband.
i often question myself. asking myself if nursing is really the job that i want. it's so tiring. and it's quite a disgusting job to do. but end up, everyday, i go home feeling so so so contented inside. i might feel tired and lousy at times. but at the end of the day, i feel so happy and contented that patients stay well under my care. =). the feeling is priceless. seriosly priceless.
the passion that i show for my job, the love and care that i shower my patients with suddenly seem so worth while. ^_^
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