woke up in the middle of the night this morning?! and couldnt fall back to sleep again...was flipping here and there...when what shiyin said suddenly flashed past my mind...she said:

shiyin: yes! dajin,chen lun(dj's sis's bf's brother...rather complex) and i.. we are going to Ngee Ann..chye yan n u sure go SP one...(chye yan wanted to get into SP..i didnt have preferences of any polys back than..cz i planned to get into jc..) then evelyn sure will get into SP one...cz got chye yan....

me: (didnt feel right after hearing what shiyin said...and so i told her...)i'll get into Ngee Ann then...i've already expected what will happen if the three of us get into the same poly(mi..cy..eve)...(aiya..you'll should know why la huh...i dont think i can tahan...) and bla bla bla the conversation got on...actually deep down in me... i truely wouldnt want that to happen...as in like..i've never thought of sharing my 6 years best buddy with someone else..i never did..really(call me selfish if you want) but the feeling is just not very right...like as if you 've been robbed...a good old treasure i've been keeping since primary 5...wouldnt say she has been robbed from me la...but should i say...in the process of?? know i'll lose her someday somehow....they're getting closer..even blind man can see...

if cy doesnt go for certain gathering,eve will not be going too...and if eve's mood swings,it's always cy that's entertaining her... and when these kind of 'getting closer' actions inched forward, i get dissapointed here and there a little...it's really that kinda insecurity... chye yan...stop dissapointing me....will you?!